For the maybe two people who ever read my posts, bear with me. Everyone else, you can scroll over this. I just have some gushing to do. Also, pretty tired, so I apologize in advance if this post is terribad..
So, recall last Saturday. I went that party. I met Javier. We made eye contact and couldn’t separate ourselves all night. He was his own party’s DJ, but I’m so glad he was. We spent the entire night and half the morning in the front room dancing our asses off to some of the best dance music I’ve heard in forayver. Let me say, he is one hot mofo. Like, it’s not even funny. If it’s possible to rape with your eyes, then I guess I’m a sex offender now. It took a little less than an hour for him to ask me out on a date, and got a peck on the cheek as I left for the night. :)
Anyway, he’s the best thing to have happened to me. We’ve been spending every day together, it’s crazy. He invited me over Monday to watch a movie. Ended up with T2 because I’ve never seen it (I know). We had a blanket to keep warm in his living room. Slowly got closer to each other through the movie… ended up as far as our legs resting against each other’s on the coffee table lol. Not lame, no. Because, you know, you’re still trying to figure out what kind of person they are. Will they judge you if you start cuddling too soon? Note to self: I think that’s an irrational fear of mine. We got hungry by the end, so went out for 888’s delicious curries. I was so nervous. I talk about everything when I’m nervous. It’s strange. But our conversation was lively, fun, animated, and interesting. A+++ would recommend again. Walking to our cars, we said goodbye. To kiss or no? He leaned in, I did too, we failed! Oh no, I can’t explain what happened, but it was awkward. I made it more awkward with an extended hug and a kiss on the cheek. I was texting him sorry when I got home, explaining we should try again soon. He said that would be great.
Tuesday was TuezGayz at Barbarella! I actually arrived a little before him, so I called my friend Jen and chatted until he was on his way (a south by show was extended). Side note, I was looking good, so that made me happy. This guy actually whistled and eye-raped me (I’m making this a thing now) outside of barbs. I was in the alley. It was kind of sketchy. Walked away. I went in after that, got a drink and one for him at his request. While waiting, i found Lydia from his party! We chatted a bit then separated He arrived, we went straight to the (full) dance floor. I met Lydia again, we danced. I met his other friends from the party again. We danced. We got more drinks. Danced. Rinse, repeat. Dancing turned into grinding turned into making out on the dance floor. Very classy. A+++ would recommend again. He stayed at my place. Got a good night of sleep.
Wednesday… What happened Wednesday? I went to his place - we were going to watch a movie. On the way, he let me know that we could go to a sxsw showcase without badges because the owner of Elysium wanted to give him a favor. Yes! It was for Zola Jesus, who I have now fallen in love with. Very powerful emotions in their songs and it shows through the lead singer. I won’t go into too much detail, because I feel this post is getting excessive, but we held each other close and had a great time listening to excellent live music (front and center stage, too!)!!
I stayed at his house last night. We didn’t get as much sleep. He’s basically made for cuddling. We talked about what we mean to each other, how happy we are to have found each other, our past, future, etc… can you believe he said he’s never had a real relationship? I felt bad saying I had to think and count the number I’ve been in. In the morning, when we were saying goodbye, I thought I misheard him. It sounded like, “I love you.” I should have asked him to say it again, but I said “Goodbye, have a good day,” and took off. Ugh, it bothered me all day not knowing for sure what he said.
He just messaged me to say, “I love you. Goodnight.”
Dead. I love him, too. ;____; And we’re seeing Grimes perform tomorrow. Also, very glad that I have tumblr to write to as a diary. Thank you for your time, Internet.
tl;dr: love blossomed thanks to twitter.